Sometimes I wonder what it takes to get someone to think for themselves. To see that they are stuck and doing nothing to help themselves. I know what everyone is going to say. You can’t do anything, they have to want it themselves and I know that is true. It is so hard for me to give up on someone. I keep trying different ways to find something that will work. But I am being to believe that this is someone I might have to give up on. Some people never understand until they lose what they have, even then that does not get them to get out of their rut. I guess that it was wrong of me to ask them to try it my way. I was hoping for a break through. Maybe something new for once. I usually always back off and let it go but I didn’t this time. I wanted to try it a different way, in the hopes that maybe something would finally get through. I failed again! Sometimes I get so tired of trying to find ways to get through. Sometimes I just want to give up and cry. I love this person very much and see what it would be possible to have. But sometimes I just wonder if it’s all an illusion that looks great until I get to close and then it disappears into thin air once more. Maybe it’s time that I stopped trying. It’s not like he hasn’t told me that enough. I didn’t really believe that he really wanted me to stop trying but I’m beginning to think that maybe I had it all wrong. Maybe he really does want me to give up. I’m sorry that I pushed so hard tonight, I was trying to see if something would make a break through happen, something that this relationship desperately needs. I didn’t know what else to do, I’ve tried everything else. I was just hoping for a break through, something that I really need now so that I can keep believing in this and us. So that I can believe that I’m not putting myself through this for nothing. That it is real and worth doing this for.